COS' WE ARE WINNERS FOREVER

I feel horrible. Shucks when i was swimming i was feeling so loser. SOMEHOW Jaan must understand that people who haven't been swimming for some time can't swim like they used to. Esp people who were originally already not very fit. Like me. And we must have at least one week to get back in shape. Hah BIG blaring clue here. But i seriously don't know what is wrong with me. Shit i couldn't even swim 6*100 on 1.30. My arms just died. &$%@ this certainly is effey. Esp since i used to go YAY at such sets like the 3*6*100 we did today. My strokes don't seem to be even swimming. My back and breast are totally shit. Now im well back to grandma stroke. Haha and my back can't keep up with the kiddies. My breast can't even keep up with brendan. Lang u better come back soon or u man are gonna be sooo slow. Alright now i know i wont be alone ^^ When am i gonna get back? I feel so useless now. Even for pulling i died on the 1st hundred like i never died before >.<

Tomorrow there's training. T-yunn might go ^^ Yay i shall go and see if i die. At least i can go and drown knowing (hopefully) that i am helping myself get back up. Sigh this is tiring and very hopeless. Gotta start mugging again, hist and geog. Darn mug-a-mug gonna tackle my exams at a run!