COS' WE ARE WINNERS FOREVER
Saturday, May 27, 2006
RI SEC 3 GEP'06 <3
IM BACK XD overseas learning journey was tiring, dirty, but in the end, rewarding and fun! I LIKE.-First Day-
Actually not really first day hor. More like from 4pm+ We started in school, then went to the train station which was really run down (i didnt know there were still places in s'pore where they charge you 2o cents for going into the toilet! And the train ride started from like 6.30. REALLY FUN. Haha though i didnt do anything much but sleep and watch people play and eat and read my book. I like such rides =) Cool experience too watching the outside pass by
-Second Day-
Started from 12 am -.- argh. Was a zombi this whole day. Anyway we got to pahang at around 2.30am+? And it was so dark and so ulu i felt so horrible. (so gu niang? lol). But we got to the palm plantation chalet. and they were quite run down =/ yucks but fair and quite big lah. at least our room didnt have frogs or flys or spiders or lizards like the other rooms xP WE WERE CLEAN. Yay i roomed with tian le and tedric. And we watched cool malay dramas.
Then wake up call 7 am. Horrible i say. Then we went back to sleep! Luckily tedric woke up at 7.15 haha. if not we would have been late. breakfast was quite fair and fun. And there were kittens around the pool! I was quite uncomfortable with all the open nature, grass mud all that. I am a superbly disinfectant shiny clean city mall person. 100% yes.
Then we split into two groups. Bus A and C go to the plantations. Bus B and D go caving! Kevin Mark Lee and Seetow stepped on an ants nest and it was so gross xP they took off their shoes and ants were crawling all over their socks. There was so many it looked scary +_+ Hmm anyway after lunch we swapped with the other group!
Now we went caving. The caves were dry for the most part lar. But there was one part in the dark where it was so muddy and squishy we were all like omg and ewwewweww. But i think we would have been quite blind without our head lights lar. And climbing in the caves was quite fun. Adventurous! Yay really damn fun especially that part where we had to climb throught the small opening in the ceiling. So small i almost got stuck! As it was i had to scrape through. But it was fun climbing through the caves together. Jump here jump there, climg here climb there and balancing on rocks! Though i was really a dead zombie lar my legs were so exhausted.
Then the last part of the caves. We went into this HUGE cavern. REALLY HUGE. The top was like hmm as tall as a condo? or shorter. I dunno x/ but REALLY HUGE. Yeah and the rock walls were really really cool. But the coolest was the rock island in the middle where it comes up and the light shines on it through an opening in the ceiling. Really beautiful when the light shines on the island. There were plants on it! Wow. Pity i dont have photos from the caves cause i didnt want to bring my camera in =( But i shall get from our professional photographer daniel lee! yes.
There was one part along the wind cave where it was super windy. Damn nice the breeze. And the whole place just looked natural in a cool way lar. Not like hiking up a bukit timah hill or smth.
Back to chalet to wash up! And then dinner. After dinner we went to night walk in the plantation. Tour guide brought us in a long way. Then we had to turn over all the torch lights and headlights put in a sack and each bus was only given 2 candles, and we had to find our own way back. So we walk in two lines in the dark hoping the people heading the line didnt lead us wrongly haha. Though it was quite easy cause the path was just one or two way. Ms tang and mr teo were behind me and haliim and they were very scared hor xP But titus as usual. Big dependable brother from primary 4 =) stayed at the back of the line behind the teachers.
Debrief was interesting. The kittens kept on sneaking up on us and walking among us that everyone was getting shocked frequently. Like halfway feel something warm and furry bump against you hand. Then look then AHHH. And HOHOHO ms tang is scared of cats.
I think i was high =) night walk quite interesting lar but had to bathe again after that.
-Third Day-
Hmm wake up call at 6.30 this time. Then after breakfast long bus ride which was damn fun. Bus ride to... Kuantan? I think yes. On the way we stopped at a batik factory which was damn cool. A lot of people bought fake billabong and quiksilver caps which were cool and only 10 ringgit. But i didnt buy. Come to think of it i was very stupid on this trip. I hardly bought anything back. But anyway there were a lot of mosquitos and flies in that place -.- But then bus ride to the hotel!
Oh yes kevin mark lee gave me his bag of food to keep for him and it was FULL of food. Haha damn fun and he let me take all! I shared it with lionel, sambor, benhong; and between us, we managed to finish almost all xP
After the chalet, the hotel was HEAVEN. The teachers ask for volunteers to go with them to buy stuff for the orphans with the money we raised but i didnt volunteer cause i wanted my free time in the hotel. I felt a little guilty since i just stoned in my room while a lot of others went out together to check out the cheap pirated stuff at the mall opposite xP Hmm but then we went for turtle release.
The turtle sanctuary you have to take of your shoes then can go inside. Hmm and we learnt about the place and turtles. Then we were all supposed to release a turtle each. but it started raining after dinner. So only those people who want to volunteer will go to release turtle. There were so many ants in that shelter that kept landing on you and hitting your head and all that. TOO MANY TO COUNT. Really the place was really teeming with ants, i was getting very freaked and stressed. And i was annoyed with our muddy shoes and sandals left out in the rain it was so disgusting; i didnt feel like releasing a turtle.
But after ms tang talked to us on the bus about it. How she said it was a really once in a lifetime opportunity. Cause the people do not let tourist release turtles or anyone else. The teachers and mr jimmy from the rotary club had to negotiate with them many many times before they agreed. And it was because of our school's name that they agreed too. So i felt really guilty that i had wasted such an opportunity and wasted the teacher's efforts.
So when ms tang asked for people to the mall and buy more things with our remaining money for the children again i volunteered. Guilty conscience mah x) Though i was super tired and irritated wiht my dirty and muddy sandals and dirty self. (it was 9pm+ already!) but i still went. And whee im glad cause it was quite fun. The shops were already closing and i think we were the last customers at the shopping centre. But we went back and the teachers asked us to spread the word that anyone who wanted to help to go down to the lobby at 11pm to help sort out all the stuff.
Im guilty again. I was lazy so i didnt go. i went to jiahong's room to play for a while then went back to my room. To my credit, i slept at around 11 =) See so i didnt not go down because i wanted to play. But i think, when i was in primary school. I would have volunteered for all these without any hesitation. Where did my enthusiasm go to? I guess i no longer believe in all these.
-Fourth Day-
We went to the homes! Bus A went to the orphans home. And we didnt need to clean the place cause it was very clean but the other 3 buses needed to clean their homes cause they were private owned and quite rundown. Someone got bitten by a centipede while cleaning! Scary. Anyway we went to their nursery too and there were so many cots inside. They looked like prisons. And there were a few babies and toddlers. They were so cute but it was so sad. We played with them for a while and michael bin gave one of the toddlers his watch cos he kept playing with it. I like that spirit =) That's very nice.
Anyway we went to the royalty beach after that for picnic lunch with the people from the homes and to play with them. It was quite cool. But couldnt wait to go home!
Then the long bus ride home was so fun. First we watched two movies, poseidon and triple x II. Poseidon was damn funny... cos you could see the shadows of people walking across the screen. Lol this one REALLY pirated. Gosh they videoed it in the cinema and halfway suddenly see someone's head moving across the screen. Lol. But i wasnt really watching. I was eating/listening to benhong's mp3/sleeping. Such bus rides are for gorging yourself on junkfood and spoiling your teeth, sharing your food, sleeping and being a pig. We all shared our food and it was so fun =)
Then after we passed the singapore checkpoint, titus came to the middle of the bus. And took out his guitar and and we sang songs. First we sang nonsense songs. Then later we kept singing our batch song and school song. I LOVED IT. You could really really feel the bus spirit and camaraderie . It was solid. When to the school song. We were singing at the top of our voices and it just makes you feel so =) and like crying haha. But we quickly sang one final batch song before we arrived at school. And ms sim was quite excited to see our bus and came up cos after all we're the coolest bus right x) Yeah but we really had the most fun. BUS A ROCKS.
On my bus i sat right at the front with daniel lee. Benhong and haliim/yansheng sat behind us and sambor/lionel opposite. Haha lionel scaredy cat! I liked the people sitting around me =) and the teachers to my right haha.
Hmm on this trip, it was fun but tiring. But i feel so much worse as a person after this. I experienced so many more things and witnessed so much more of my friends. I saw much nicer things of my friends that i never knew and i feel so bad for being such a judgemental person. I look at all the good qualities of other people and all the nice things they did and i feel like a horrible and bad person =( I dont like what i've become and i feel so inadequate.
Anyway i have FINALLY updated my links! Yay and ive uploaded the photos, they are in the links page. But silly me i mostly took pictures of myself and useless photos. The photos i should really have taken i didnt take. But dont worry! I shall get them from daniel lee, he has EVERYTHING. I shall get the nice cave photos too! Yay so wait for me to get then i will upload them too.
AND I LOVE 3L'06 <3
Actually not really first day hor. More like from 4pm+ We started in school, then went to the train station which was really run down (i didnt know there were still places in s'pore where they charge you 2o cents for going into the toilet! And the train ride started from like 6.30. REALLY FUN. Haha though i didnt do anything much but sleep and watch people play and eat and read my book. I like such rides =) Cool experience too watching the outside pass by
-Second Day-
Started from 12 am -.- argh. Was a zombi this whole day. Anyway we got to pahang at around 2.30am+? And it was so dark and so ulu i felt so horrible. (so gu niang? lol). But we got to the palm plantation chalet. and they were quite run down =/ yucks but fair and quite big lah. at least our room didnt have frogs or flys or spiders or lizards like the other rooms xP WE WERE CLEAN. Yay i roomed with tian le and tedric. And we watched cool malay dramas.
Then wake up call 7 am. Horrible i say. Then we went back to sleep! Luckily tedric woke up at 7.15 haha. if not we would have been late. breakfast was quite fair and fun. And there were kittens around the pool! I was quite uncomfortable with all the open nature, grass mud all that. I am a superbly disinfectant shiny clean city mall person. 100% yes.
Then we split into two groups. Bus A and C go to the plantations. Bus B and D go caving! Kevin Mark Lee and Seetow stepped on an ants nest and it was so gross xP they took off their shoes and ants were crawling all over their socks. There was so many it looked scary +_+ Hmm anyway after lunch we swapped with the other group!
Now we went caving. The caves were dry for the most part lar. But there was one part in the dark where it was so muddy and squishy we were all like omg and ewwewweww. But i think we would have been quite blind without our head lights lar. And climbing in the caves was quite fun. Adventurous! Yay really damn fun especially that part where we had to climb throught the small opening in the ceiling. So small i almost got stuck! As it was i had to scrape through. But it was fun climbing through the caves together. Jump here jump there, climg here climb there and balancing on rocks! Though i was really a dead zombie lar my legs were so exhausted.
Then the last part of the caves. We went into this HUGE cavern. REALLY HUGE. The top was like hmm as tall as a condo? or shorter. I dunno x/ but REALLY HUGE. Yeah and the rock walls were really really cool. But the coolest was the rock island in the middle where it comes up and the light shines on it through an opening in the ceiling. Really beautiful when the light shines on the island. There were plants on it! Wow. Pity i dont have photos from the caves cause i didnt want to bring my camera in =( But i shall get from our professional photographer daniel lee! yes.
There was one part along the wind cave where it was super windy. Damn nice the breeze. And the whole place just looked natural in a cool way lar. Not like hiking up a bukit timah hill or smth.
Back to chalet to wash up! And then dinner. After dinner we went to night walk in the plantation. Tour guide brought us in a long way. Then we had to turn over all the torch lights and headlights put in a sack and each bus was only given 2 candles, and we had to find our own way back. So we walk in two lines in the dark hoping the people heading the line didnt lead us wrongly haha. Though it was quite easy cause the path was just one or two way. Ms tang and mr teo were behind me and haliim and they were very scared hor xP But titus as usual. Big dependable brother from primary 4 =) stayed at the back of the line behind the teachers.
Debrief was interesting. The kittens kept on sneaking up on us and walking among us that everyone was getting shocked frequently. Like halfway feel something warm and furry bump against you hand. Then look then AHHH. And HOHOHO ms tang is scared of cats.
I think i was high =) night walk quite interesting lar but had to bathe again after that.
-Third Day-
Hmm wake up call at 6.30 this time. Then after breakfast long bus ride which was damn fun. Bus ride to... Kuantan? I think yes. On the way we stopped at a batik factory which was damn cool. A lot of people bought fake billabong and quiksilver caps which were cool and only 10 ringgit. But i didnt buy. Come to think of it i was very stupid on this trip. I hardly bought anything back. But anyway there were a lot of mosquitos and flies in that place -.- But then bus ride to the hotel!
Oh yes kevin mark lee gave me his bag of food to keep for him and it was FULL of food. Haha damn fun and he let me take all! I shared it with lionel, sambor, benhong; and between us, we managed to finish almost all xP
After the chalet, the hotel was HEAVEN. The teachers ask for volunteers to go with them to buy stuff for the orphans with the money we raised but i didnt volunteer cause i wanted my free time in the hotel. I felt a little guilty since i just stoned in my room while a lot of others went out together to check out the cheap pirated stuff at the mall opposite xP Hmm but then we went for turtle release.
The turtle sanctuary you have to take of your shoes then can go inside. Hmm and we learnt about the place and turtles. Then we were all supposed to release a turtle each. but it started raining after dinner. So only those people who want to volunteer will go to release turtle. There were so many ants in that shelter that kept landing on you and hitting your head and all that. TOO MANY TO COUNT. Really the place was really teeming with ants, i was getting very freaked and stressed. And i was annoyed with our muddy shoes and sandals left out in the rain it was so disgusting; i didnt feel like releasing a turtle.
But after ms tang talked to us on the bus about it. How she said it was a really once in a lifetime opportunity. Cause the people do not let tourist release turtles or anyone else. The teachers and mr jimmy from the rotary club had to negotiate with them many many times before they agreed. And it was because of our school's name that they agreed too. So i felt really guilty that i had wasted such an opportunity and wasted the teacher's efforts.
So when ms tang asked for people to the mall and buy more things with our remaining money for the children again i volunteered. Guilty conscience mah x) Though i was super tired and irritated wiht my dirty and muddy sandals and dirty self. (it was 9pm+ already!) but i still went. And whee im glad cause it was quite fun. The shops were already closing and i think we were the last customers at the shopping centre. But we went back and the teachers asked us to spread the word that anyone who wanted to help to go down to the lobby at 11pm to help sort out all the stuff.
Im guilty again. I was lazy so i didnt go. i went to jiahong's room to play for a while then went back to my room. To my credit, i slept at around 11 =) See so i didnt not go down because i wanted to play. But i think, when i was in primary school. I would have volunteered for all these without any hesitation. Where did my enthusiasm go to? I guess i no longer believe in all these.
-Fourth Day-
We went to the homes! Bus A went to the orphans home. And we didnt need to clean the place cause it was very clean but the other 3 buses needed to clean their homes cause they were private owned and quite rundown. Someone got bitten by a centipede while cleaning! Scary. Anyway we went to their nursery too and there were so many cots inside. They looked like prisons. And there were a few babies and toddlers. They were so cute but it was so sad. We played with them for a while and michael bin gave one of the toddlers his watch cos he kept playing with it. I like that spirit =) That's very nice.
Anyway we went to the royalty beach after that for picnic lunch with the people from the homes and to play with them. It was quite cool. But couldnt wait to go home!
Then the long bus ride home was so fun. First we watched two movies, poseidon and triple x II. Poseidon was damn funny... cos you could see the shadows of people walking across the screen. Lol this one REALLY pirated. Gosh they videoed it in the cinema and halfway suddenly see someone's head moving across the screen. Lol. But i wasnt really watching. I was eating/listening to benhong's mp3/sleeping. Such bus rides are for gorging yourself on junkfood and spoiling your teeth, sharing your food, sleeping and being a pig. We all shared our food and it was so fun =)
Then after we passed the singapore checkpoint, titus came to the middle of the bus. And took out his guitar and and we sang songs. First we sang nonsense songs. Then later we kept singing our batch song and school song. I LOVED IT. You could really really feel the bus spirit and camaraderie . It was solid. When to the school song. We were singing at the top of our voices and it just makes you feel so =) and like crying haha. But we quickly sang one final batch song before we arrived at school. And ms sim was quite excited to see our bus and came up cos after all we're the coolest bus right x) Yeah but we really had the most fun. BUS A ROCKS.
On my bus i sat right at the front with daniel lee. Benhong and haliim/yansheng sat behind us and sambor/lionel opposite. Haha lionel scaredy cat! I liked the people sitting around me =) and the teachers to my right haha.
Hmm on this trip, it was fun but tiring. But i feel so much worse as a person after this. I experienced so many more things and witnessed so much more of my friends. I saw much nicer things of my friends that i never knew and i feel so bad for being such a judgemental person. I look at all the good qualities of other people and all the nice things they did and i feel like a horrible and bad person =( I dont like what i've become and i feel so inadequate.
Anyway i have FINALLY updated my links! Yay and ive uploaded the photos, they are in the links page. But silly me i mostly took pictures of myself and useless photos. The photos i should really have taken i didnt take. But dont worry! I shall get them from daniel lee, he has EVERYTHING. I shall get the nice cave photos too! Yay so wait for me to get then i will upload them too.
AND I LOVE 3L'06 <3
Monday, May 22, 2006
crazy
off to clean the beaches of kuantan malaysia! eek.
today is russell chan's birthday. see i rmb. haha finally i rmb someone's birthday (or rather i rmb when people remind me xP). like for ____ birthday last year. I was going to say i regret that. but hey we agreed to be nice now x) at least he answered my happy birthday sms. unlike- we know. anway to russell chan: HAPPY BIRTHDAY! give me all your birthday presents!
i hate it when you make me laugh. do you notice?
today is russell chan's birthday. see i rmb. haha finally i rmb someone's birthday (or rather i rmb when people remind me xP). like for ____ birthday last year. I was going to say i regret that. but hey we agreed to be nice now x) at least he answered my happy birthday sms. unlike- we know. anway to russell chan: HAPPY BIRTHDAY! give me all your birthday presents!
i hate it when you make me laugh. do you notice?
Saturday, May 20, 2006
playing sexy feeling hotter
Yesterday we went out to watch over the hedge. It was a nice show i think. Just quite lame. But hammy on caffeine is SO COOL Hahahaha i think it was too short though. But we got there late. Cause we were sooo hectic at the first part rushing here and there gathering everyone and waiting for people (grr). But still we ALL got into the theatre. Though i think we made a lot of noise cause we were quite blind. Yay and i brought my never before used by me camera. Silly me and i placed lots of fingerprints on the lens cause i was feeling how fun it was to feel it going in and out while zooming in and out -.-" After that i realised how stupid i was.
But i took a few pictures! Haha with everyone i think. Just except for one stupid unfriendly person. But i didnt want to press it. And the cake was nice. THANKS WEN. Me and my brother got a hangten t-shirt, the flashing boy from action city, and an SSC iron-on crest, for heshan. Isnt that nice xP But. Im not really close to him. Oh shit. I am supposed to write a letter for him. And im going out in 10 minutes! Shit.
END OF MENTORING. dunno if im happy or sad. Aiya i wrote a long message on the back of my mentee's certificate. Haha i can get quite carried away writing letters. But i told him in life, we only have two choices in the end.
1. To choose to be happy or to be sad
2. To choose to try your best or not
There are other things lar but now i think those affect me the most. I have been trying every training during a tough main set to tell myself. Heck let's just give it our all. Try our best or not we still finish it at the end. Sometimes i break down halfway or lie to myself that im trying my best. But on the days i actually do try my best for the whole set, I FEEL DAMN ACCOMPLISHED. Yay i feel very happy =) So see in the end we just need to choose between these choices.
If you want to be sad. Who can help you lah. Life sucks right. We have to go through it and if you are stressed. Change it if you can. But if you cant, what's the point of being sad when you can be happy. Though honestly this can lead to when you have one more mark to a GPA 4 you go shit but laugh it off. But others who are not so carefree scream and cry about it. It sucks doesnt it. Just dont get too heck care.
And now im very intolerant of slackers too. If you slack and want to feel down. Dont get snappy at other people cause if you do i will give you a scolding. It's your choice after all.
And after the last session where we played with the mentees. Ms Heng (our mentor) showed us a video with lots of inspiring messages which i felt were really true. And it really touched me. I felt really... you know that kind of feeling la xP SO TRUE all those things.
Oh shit i gtg.
But i took a few pictures! Haha with everyone i think. Just except for one stupid unfriendly person. But i didnt want to press it. And the cake was nice. THANKS WEN. Me and my brother got a hangten t-shirt, the flashing boy from action city, and an SSC iron-on crest, for heshan. Isnt that nice xP But. Im not really close to him. Oh shit. I am supposed to write a letter for him. And im going out in 10 minutes! Shit.
END OF MENTORING. dunno if im happy or sad. Aiya i wrote a long message on the back of my mentee's certificate. Haha i can get quite carried away writing letters. But i told him in life, we only have two choices in the end.
1. To choose to be happy or to be sad
2. To choose to try your best or not
There are other things lar but now i think those affect me the most. I have been trying every training during a tough main set to tell myself. Heck let's just give it our all. Try our best or not we still finish it at the end. Sometimes i break down halfway or lie to myself that im trying my best. But on the days i actually do try my best for the whole set, I FEEL DAMN ACCOMPLISHED. Yay i feel very happy =) So see in the end we just need to choose between these choices.
If you want to be sad. Who can help you lah. Life sucks right. We have to go through it and if you are stressed. Change it if you can. But if you cant, what's the point of being sad when you can be happy. Though honestly this can lead to when you have one more mark to a GPA 4 you go shit but laugh it off. But others who are not so carefree scream and cry about it. It sucks doesnt it. Just dont get too heck care.
And now im very intolerant of slackers too. If you slack and want to feel down. Dont get snappy at other people cause if you do i will give you a scolding. It's your choice after all.
And after the last session where we played with the mentees. Ms Heng (our mentor) showed us a video with lots of inspiring messages which i felt were really true. And it really touched me. I felt really... you know that kind of feeling la xP SO TRUE all those things.
Oh shit i gtg.
Wednesday, May 17, 2006
waiting
i think. i am obsessed.
Tuesday, May 16, 2006
fake
I have decided. TO STOP SLACKING. And this time, IT'S THE REAL THING. Really really this time. Hahahaha. Cause my brother isnt smarter than me. And he got a 3.94 overall GPA and of all things not to get 4.0 GPA in is in english -.- Plus he didnt study at all for the cts unlike my last minute cramming -.- DURING LONG PERIODS OF MEDITATION, i have contemplated the mysteries of life. And come to a conclusion that it was because he spends weeks on projects and studying while i do them in the thirteenth hour xP THUS it is because of my laziness and slack attitude. I have resolved to buck up and get my GPA 3.79 for the overall year cause baby, that's so POSSIBLE.
Monday, May 15, 2006
full moon
Quite a few GEP teachers are gonna leave during the june holidays. Hmm i heard mrs neo li kheang my sec 2 chem teacher. And 3 teachers also who teach my class. I know two of them. Ms Chia who i really quite like a lot is leaving for vjc. and Ms Tang. I dunno if she's leaving permanently or just on loooong holiday around the world. But we will be having 3 different teachers for the rest of the year. Funnily, during that moment when ms chia told us she would be leaving and ahgong told me ms tang would be leaving. I felt more like crying than any of the stressed times i've had so far. The only reason i didnt was because i dont cry in public especially in front of teachers anymore.
I dont know why it's not like im especially close to them? But dont you think it's so sad. We always have people leaving us in our lives. And it hurts everytime doesnt it. But i wonder, why they werent as affected by it as i was?
I want to swim. I want my bestie. I want to talk to someone who can listen.
Lol a subcomm member who says fuck to swimmers and threatens them? Hahaha for saying hello hmm. Crazy old coot.
I dont know why it's not like im especially close to them? But dont you think it's so sad. We always have people leaving us in our lives. And it hurts everytime doesnt it. But i wonder, why they werent as affected by it as i was?
I want to swim. I want my bestie. I want to talk to someone who can listen.
Lol a subcomm member who says fuck to swimmers and threatens them? Hahaha for saying hello hmm. Crazy old coot.
Saturday, May 13, 2006
me manual
13 THINGS COACHES AND PEOPLE WHO TRAIN WITH ME SHOULD KNOW
1. I have a temper
2. Never say things like "jia you" or "you're doing good zi yao". Cause it's terribly condescending to me. I dont need such encouragements.
3. If you don't give me my time for something. I will slack the next one.
4. People who slack the first few and sprint the last one are greatly annoying. I make sure i trash them for ALL.
5. I dislike people who keep on going first and end up getting overtaken everytime. PUT THESE PEOPLE DOWN A GROUP.
6. I get angry easily. If you find me pissed and rebellious/slacking. Dont try to do anything or talk to me. Or you are gonna get some serious attitude and bitching.
7. If you put me in a lower group than others who i know i obviously beat, i will go fast and beat their timing regardless of the times my lane are on. The people behind can just follow.
8. Often if i feel that the people in my lane can make faster times, i will go earlier and try to force them to make the time. THEY JUST LAZY.
9. I hate it if you show biasness, i will try my best to make sure the people you dont favour will beat those who you favour.
10. I am no longer afraid of being rebellious or bitchy or hurting peoples' feelings. Make me annoyed and i will make sure your life is HELL. Except if im scared of you lar xP
11. Dont get too cocky or bigheaded. Cause for some of you, you arent fast at all. Stop putting yourself ahead of er yourself. Please lar dont consider yourself elite if no one acknowledges you as so. Stop thinking you're so fast cause arrogance isnt a nice quality and people just get disgusted. LISTEN TO PEOPLE LAUGHING AT YOU.
12. Often it isnt because i cant do it. But because i dont feel like doing it. So dont make the mistake of underestimating me cause you just make me angry.
13. Before i trust you and accept you i would be GREATLY intolerant. So please people i dont really know dont piss me off like slacking in the middle of the lane.
Training's been so tough =( and school's day after tmr argh. CANT WAIT FOR JUNE HOLIDAYS. i think im going for the aquathlon but that's like right after our GE camp in malaysia +_+ dunno if i can still swim/run.
and he's daoing me! ARGH fine always like this lar but IDIOT im trying to be nice now.
1. I have a temper
2. Never say things like "jia you" or "you're doing good zi yao". Cause it's terribly condescending to me. I dont need such encouragements.
3. If you don't give me my time for something. I will slack the next one.
4. People who slack the first few and sprint the last one are greatly annoying. I make sure i trash them for ALL.
5. I dislike people who keep on going first and end up getting overtaken everytime. PUT THESE PEOPLE DOWN A GROUP.
6. I get angry easily. If you find me pissed and rebellious/slacking. Dont try to do anything or talk to me. Or you are gonna get some serious attitude and bitching.
7. If you put me in a lower group than others who i know i obviously beat, i will go fast and beat their timing regardless of the times my lane are on. The people behind can just follow.
8. Often if i feel that the people in my lane can make faster times, i will go earlier and try to force them to make the time. THEY JUST LAZY.
9. I hate it if you show biasness, i will try my best to make sure the people you dont favour will beat those who you favour.
10. I am no longer afraid of being rebellious or bitchy or hurting peoples' feelings. Make me annoyed and i will make sure your life is HELL. Except if im scared of you lar xP
11. Dont get too cocky or bigheaded. Cause for some of you, you arent fast at all. Stop putting yourself ahead of er yourself. Please lar dont consider yourself elite if no one acknowledges you as so. Stop thinking you're so fast cause arrogance isnt a nice quality and people just get disgusted. LISTEN TO PEOPLE LAUGHING AT YOU.
12. Often it isnt because i cant do it. But because i dont feel like doing it. So dont make the mistake of underestimating me cause you just make me angry.
13. Before i trust you and accept you i would be GREATLY intolerant. So please people i dont really know dont piss me off like slacking in the middle of the lane.
Training's been so tough =( and school's day after tmr argh. CANT WAIT FOR JUNE HOLIDAYS. i think im going for the aquathlon but that's like right after our GE camp in malaysia +_+ dunno if i can still swim/run.
and he's daoing me! ARGH fine always like this lar but IDIOT im trying to be nice now.
Wednesday, May 10, 2006
are we going to keep it strong
When you think you have lots of friends. but you still feel alone. No one to talk to? Look again. Maybe you are alone.
You think you are popular. But if you find yourself following after others just sticking about with the group. You follow where they go. Sorry think again. You're just a loser.
Sitting on the swing. Going up and down. Feeling pain and tired only, when you remember you should be feeling happy. Feel like throwing your head back and crying and shouting out a song. A song 1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8 9 10 I CAUGHT THE STARS! finally you feel happy and tired because of it.
When you know you do not hate the person/s. total opposite. But you cant help but destroy what could have been. Distance yourself and put miles and miles in between. Think again and maybe you find it was because you were scared of rejection. Again and again.
If he did not do what you think he would do. Does your hurt turn to hate? What is wrong. I think im an S personality. Sorry i cant.
You think everything is going right. Everything is fine. You think you are showing a cool, reserved front. Look in the mirror. Maybe you're just being a loner. Perhaps you dont know what they think of you. Perhaps you just wish you knew them/you/us/whatever.
I am profiled an I personality. I think i was. Now im just too tired. Tired to try. Tired to be. Being I is tiring. Tiring to suppress and show and suppress and show again. Are we too shy? Why must we suppress it. Are we afraid of what they might think? Do we know them yet?
Are you trying hard? Slack some sprint some. Let's come in first. The last set only. Too bad you still cant beat me. THINK AGAIN COS YOU HAVE NOTHING ON ME.
Am i abusing the water? Do i only slack when you dont give me my times? Were we supposed to slack the first few and only sprint the last three? Never think that i cant do it or it was difficult. It is never difficult. It was never a problem. Just whether i felt like. Stop being a loser and maybe you will see. Why else do i give you attitude. THINKTHINKTHINK.
When you are in front of your locker. The lights are not all on. The shadows lie across your locker, the fan is spinning. In the background a person is talking loudly to his friend. Start to sing a song. "im blue. im going crazy how 'bout you?" maybe you're going crazy cos you switched lonely for crazy.
Nightime is such a nice time for thinking. Going through the bright porch with everyone waiting for their rides home. Feel out of place? Everywhere.
I think im going crazy.
You think you are popular. But if you find yourself following after others just sticking about with the group. You follow where they go. Sorry think again. You're just a loser.
Sitting on the swing. Going up and down. Feeling pain and tired only, when you remember you should be feeling happy. Feel like throwing your head back and crying and shouting out a song. A song 1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8 9 10 I CAUGHT THE STARS! finally you feel happy and tired because of it.
When you know you do not hate the person/s. total opposite. But you cant help but destroy what could have been. Distance yourself and put miles and miles in between. Think again and maybe you find it was because you were scared of rejection. Again and again.
If he did not do what you think he would do. Does your hurt turn to hate? What is wrong. I think im an S personality. Sorry i cant.
You think everything is going right. Everything is fine. You think you are showing a cool, reserved front. Look in the mirror. Maybe you're just being a loner. Perhaps you dont know what they think of you. Perhaps you just wish you knew them/you/us/whatever.
I am profiled an I personality. I think i was. Now im just too tired. Tired to try. Tired to be. Being I is tiring. Tiring to suppress and show and suppress and show again. Are we too shy? Why must we suppress it. Are we afraid of what they might think? Do we know them yet?
Are you trying hard? Slack some sprint some. Let's come in first. The last set only. Too bad you still cant beat me. THINK AGAIN COS YOU HAVE NOTHING ON ME.
Am i abusing the water? Do i only slack when you dont give me my times? Were we supposed to slack the first few and only sprint the last three? Never think that i cant do it or it was difficult. It is never difficult. It was never a problem. Just whether i felt like. Stop being a loser and maybe you will see. Why else do i give you attitude. THINKTHINKTHINK.
When you are in front of your locker. The lights are not all on. The shadows lie across your locker, the fan is spinning. In the background a person is talking loudly to his friend. Start to sing a song. "im blue. im going crazy how 'bout you?" maybe you're going crazy cos you switched lonely for crazy.
Nightime is such a nice time for thinking. Going through the bright porch with everyone waiting for their rides home. Feel out of place? Everywhere.
I think im going crazy.
Sunday, May 07, 2006
once in a lifetime
ok. i REALLY need the psychologist =( I AM SO DIFFERENT. gosh i wanna be guai boy again. shitshit i have been slacking this stupid midyear week away. gosh can you believe on thursday after my chem midyear, i went to j8 to watch mission impossible 3, WHEN I HAD MY PHYSICS AND MATH MIDYEAR THE NEXT DAY. god i am fucked. i bet me and jiahong were the only ri boys ever to do that in the middle of exam week right before the scariest two papers. But i guess it was alright for him cause he's the math genius =/ RIGHT I HAVE AP NOW i am so gonna get a GPA of 2.8 shit and i will end up crying at the end of the year i know but i cant help it. what's wrong with me =( all the days of this exam week i was playing the computer can you believe that -.- i really need help.
I AM FUCKED AND SO GOING DOOOOOWWN.
I AM FUCKED AND SO GOING DOOOOOWWN.
Monday, May 01, 2006
gala
Gala was fun! Yay im so glad that i was persuaded to sit with 7 girls and 2 boys instead of sitting with the rowdy boys table. You're right X) i wouldn't have too much fun there anyway, im not like that. And i heard they were BORED to death! HAHAHA =) Yes i dont need to stick to the group. This seems like my p5 to p6 transition? I had so much more fun XD i wont be a follower. Haha i think half their table were like people who didnt really talk much lol. THANKS i finally see why i shouldnt care about it. And some of them came over HAH.
And this year's gala was so much more fun than last years! Yay but there were sooo many performances +_+ But rachel yeo can dance (y) better than me! WAH LAU. Had to learn the song in one night, but i felt yiwen should be applauded, she did the card AND the song! Haha great captain and i feel so inadequate xP And girls your dances are getting more AHEM haha. I won a photo printer! YAYA. food was lousy though. who eats sausage rolls for dinner! BUT jelly was nice.
mansheng called me action... who is more er action he or me? Lol am i even very action -.-" he wants loads of attention lar. Disgusting ass his performance was STUPID plus gareth just... hmm they made him look like a fool lar.
And i want to scold elite! Look at other clubs, look at our club. We are so fragmentated. Even the boys are not united AT ALL. Ok i admit i do not try to correct myself though i should =/ BUT if the boys cant even be united and not fragmentated like it is, NO WONDER the boys and girls are like seperate squads! This way we will never be a great club. I know the girls want to bridge the gap and they dont mind trying. But the majority of the boys you are shit. You dont even try! Instead of choosing to sit right at the other side of the ballroom, you could choose to sit next to the girl's + few boys tables. You effing people are the only table in elite to be sitting at a different area. Ok admittedly there were only 3 elite tables lar xP i wouldnt bother but the majority of our elite boys do not seem to want to be united at all. You all keep dissing the girls hello are you all gay? (im a good one to be saying that heh xP)
WHAT ARE YOUR PROBLEMS. I know it's probably just a stupid few people who insist on doing that. And the others follow probably cos they want to follow the "cool" boys or follow the group. Please i tried that in p5 i wasnt happy. I chose my own way in p6 and 6L was such a united class that was when i was truly happy and excelling. What can we do? GET YOUR OWN LIFE. And dont be a follower please.
Look at the generation before us. Ok lol maybe not generation but you know what i mean. Shinhan denise jody samuel tyunn orion. Their generation. THEY ALWAYS SIT TOGETHER NO MATTER BOYS OR GIRLS. They are very united. They even tried to make their own blog which the boys actively participated in. Our ssc elite blog might as well call it SSC ELITE GIRLS + FEW BOYS blog. wtf. Mature and get a life. We dont have much more time to be united.
OH SHIT HAVENT STARTED MUGGING. I die! Today got mayday dunno whether to go =(
And this year's gala was so much more fun than last years! Yay but there were sooo many performances +_+ But rachel yeo can dance (y) better than me! WAH LAU. Had to learn the song in one night, but i felt yiwen should be applauded, she did the card AND the song! Haha great captain and i feel so inadequate xP And girls your dances are getting more AHEM haha. I won a photo printer! YAYA. food was lousy though. who eats sausage rolls for dinner! BUT jelly was nice.
mansheng called me action... who is more er action he or me? Lol am i even very action -.-" he wants loads of attention lar. Disgusting ass his performance was STUPID plus gareth just... hmm they made him look like a fool lar.
And i want to scold elite! Look at other clubs, look at our club. We are so fragmentated. Even the boys are not united AT ALL. Ok i admit i do not try to correct myself though i should =/ BUT if the boys cant even be united and not fragmentated like it is, NO WONDER the boys and girls are like seperate squads! This way we will never be a great club. I know the girls want to bridge the gap and they dont mind trying. But the majority of the boys you are shit. You dont even try! Instead of choosing to sit right at the other side of the ballroom, you could choose to sit next to the girl's + few boys tables. You effing people are the only table in elite to be sitting at a different area. Ok admittedly there were only 3 elite tables lar xP i wouldnt bother but the majority of our elite boys do not seem to want to be united at all. You all keep dissing the girls hello are you all gay? (im a good one to be saying that heh xP)
WHAT ARE YOUR PROBLEMS. I know it's probably just a stupid few people who insist on doing that. And the others follow probably cos they want to follow the "cool" boys or follow the group. Please i tried that in p5 i wasnt happy. I chose my own way in p6 and 6L was such a united class that was when i was truly happy and excelling. What can we do? GET YOUR OWN LIFE. And dont be a follower please.
Look at the generation before us. Ok lol maybe not generation but you know what i mean. Shinhan denise jody samuel tyunn orion. Their generation. THEY ALWAYS SIT TOGETHER NO MATTER BOYS OR GIRLS. They are very united. They even tried to make their own blog which the boys actively participated in. Our ssc elite blog might as well call it SSC ELITE GIRLS + FEW BOYS blog. wtf. Mature and get a life. We dont have much more time to be united.
OH SHIT HAVENT STARTED MUGGING. I die! Today got mayday dunno whether to go =(
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