COS' WE ARE WINNERS FOREVER

Trained today! At the pool downstairs with mayumi and kenneth >.< Haha it was quite fun. Kenneth is quite fun to gang up against xP But ah well, the program was only 1 hour plus long. So we finished quite early and had fun. Oh an kenneth went up to mayumi's house to bathe and eat something after till his father came. WELL best friends hor haha.

Then went to auntie christine's house to visit. And while the adults talked, we played xbox and watched phantom of the opera. I like their family, they're quite nice =)

Now i have to go do my work. Argh annoying byzantine and history of science >:( Lit would be soo much more fun.

Yesterday was a busy little day. School was FUN. For the first time ever yeah. We were going to have our party when 3M asked us to join them. And since math and chinese were theirs and our lessons for the days, zhang lao shi and mr teo let us have a joined party for 2 whole periods! Whee =) There were LOTS of food and music and games. Haha it's times like this when i really feel happy in school. Seeing the yusheng made me think back to tao nan and feel nostalgic, but strangely not sad. cai lao shi bought for us yusheng and i remember i was supposed to put some topping on it being vice-chairman but i just dumped it on! I didnt know i was supposed to put it in a circle x)

After that went back to tao nan. It was nice to see the teachers again! But like i told jon lee, there is no passion anymore. And nothing's like what it once was. Everybody changed too much. I reached there areound 10.45 and stayed till 3.30. Haha to see cai lao shi! She came back from Hong Kong the day before and went to do her hair before coming to see us -.- By that time a lot of people had gone home. Hmm and kenneth was being an idiot making us chase him xP Was a but unsure about waiting to see cai lao shi. After all i would want my memory of her to be of the greatest and best teacher i've known, i wouldnt want to meet her and find that there is no more enthusiam? You know. But meeting ms cheng and mrs martha tan was nice! They are still so fun and the same. Though ms cheng does look a lot older. The teachers say my face has changed a lot!

Training was sucky again with my still ever so slow free. But then yan's party was fun! I liked the brownie cake. But cheat one! Haha.

Stupid schoolwork is killing me! And stupid training. Argh i am SUPER unfit. And something's horribly wrong with my strokes, esp free. Shit i have such an awkward and jerky freestyle stroke now when i try to go moderately fast, and you know for me that is not a very fast pace at all =( Ah and today for the im i was dying right from the start. Lol my body was like, erm you know that super weak state, where you cant sprint, cos if you try to sprint, or pull hard, your arms will not hold and will turn sideways. That's what happened to me for the fly, my arms were too tired to pull and kept on turning sideways halfway. Argh and it didnt help that rachel goh almost killed me right from the start by super sprinting at the beginning. I was feeling a little annoyed and didnt want to give in to her so i sprinted and kept ahead. Silly me. Ah well.

I just hope i can get my fitness back soon. But i know the amount and quality of training i put in isnt very satisfactory -.- Holidays are so much easier. And i can't go for morning trainings! Cos my brother's form teacher (he's very weird) read his form, and said that he can't skip assembly. A COE swimmer from his class also got scolded for missing assembly due to training =.= DUMB.

Ah well but now i must go study for my physics test tomorrow! Eep it's so difficult, so many things to memorise and i think i would fail a stupid graph if there is one =( School is HELL! I just wanna get life over with and retire.

WELL. I haven't blogged in ages, and i still dont feel like blogging >.> Life has been too sucky. Ah well but i still feel obliged to at least have a paragraph. Hmm i shant talk about the obs which ruined 2 full weeks of my life. Lucky you.

Double age group was lousy too. 1 pb. IN THE ENTIRE MEET. Lol is that an all time record for me? Usually i do 100% pbs or -.- I blame OBS(!!!) and hockey and a lack of sleep due to staying up reading robert jordan! Hey i need something to blame. I scratched events, i slacked events (like totally, ask about my 400 free), i sprinted and sucked events. Gosh i think it was the most horrible competition i've ever been to. It's a wonder i actually managed any medals at all. Hmph. =( But i didnt really feel very affected or sad in the competition. Ah nowadays competitions are like so unimportant. Unlike when we were young. I just feel mildy annoyed by my performance this meet. And there are no prize presentations any more. Haha good riddance, it just takes up time actually.

Ahem and onto other sucky matters. I have concluded that to swim breaststroke for inter-school this year, i would have to do a 1.13.5 for 100m, and a 2.42 for 200m by NAG. 0.0 tough. Life just sucks so much.

And the teachers give homework like nobody's business. Physics and chinese alone would be enough to account for all the load of homework i had last year. Add the others and zzzz. We're dead. Im barely holding up, and it's the start of the year. I must change my procrastination tendencies. And our chinese teacher is from china! And she is new to ri this year. SO she thinks our standard is like really high. For our holiday homework, many people got like 2/20 -.- The highest was 14/20 and that would normally have gotten like 13/15 for a normal chinese teacher. ARGH. I want to continue to rock in chinese! EEP and she has already been repeatedly shocked with the general inaptitude in chinese in our class. But it's true i guess, compared to 2J! 3L's chinese really SUCKS. Gosh i hope she doesnt continue to overestimate our chinese standard for long and give 3/4 of the class failing marks. And oh shit. Chinese summary next lesson.

I left church 45 minutes early today with my mother to go to the chinese new year pasar-malam outside the marine parade market and buy our lunch. I bought some sweets and made her buy some chinese new year food. =) And then she made me walk around for another 10 minutes translating chinese words for her. Very hot. But i like those chinese new year goodies. I don't think we are going chinatown this year so there'll be like half as much goodies in our house as last year ;<

I sometimes wish we were all cavemen and then life would be so much simpler wouldn't it?

SUCKED.

I didnt do this properly the last time i realised. So here i am to do it!

2005 was a erm... Hmm okay year i guess. It was busy, stressful but fun at times. I bonded very much more with my wonderful class >.< So thank you 2J '05! Whee yes and all of you who made it a better year for me than it would have been, esp my best friend naomi! Thanks for being there for me all the time. And all my swimming friends who made training so much more fun.

Hmm the holidays just passed by so fast in a blink of an eye. One moment we were starting the huge journey into 2005 and a second later we're already on the 2006 marathon. The holidays were, interesting i guess. As usual and a great relief from all the stress of stupid school life. But then again i think it has been the most horrible holiday ever. It wasn't boring. But social life just sucks being so complicated and stressful doesn't it?

Ahem, new year resolutions! Just a very few.

1. STOP PROCRASTINATING! (FYI i tried to rush ALL my holiday homework during the last 1.5 days of holiday. And i STILL haven't finished my commonwelath essay. Whew for me, there weren't any school lessons today)

2. BE MORE MOTIVATED (I really need this. I've been slacking social, school, and swimming life. So buck up!)

3. BE A MUCH NICER PERSON (Hah i really would. I think my two secondary years from my safe and sheltered primary school years have made me a much more cynical, uninnocent and a person with a worse character on the whole. Nobody says im nice no more, they say im mean. SO!)

That's all. We won't want too much, im too lazy to do them all.

I feel so very tired from all the years of p1 to s2. I just want to lie down and slack. Just let the world go by as i watch from my stationary seat at the side. But i'll try for 2006! If i don't i know i'll regret it next time in my life. But it's so much easier to regret something than actually do it at that time isn't it? It'll be better.



And ARGH. My OBS is right before the double age group. I am dead =( I won't be able to swim for the dumb competition. Hah ah well i'll still try my best. Haha i know i've always said i don't want to go to OBS. But strangely when i looked down at the batch going to OBS this week, i suddenly felt so much like wanting to go. Hope it'll be fun.

It'll be better.