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Saturday, April 22, 2006
cowboy god from head to toe
Went training this morning. FINALLY HOR XP But i cant swim liao. My fly is zzzz. Swim the first 50 then die =( Aiyo but at least like this i dont tire myself out like shit, cannot swim too fast to be too tired because my body is too fat and lazy to keep up hmm. But quite fun i think, and i managed to go under 6 minutes for 2 of them! Then the other two 6.04 and 6.06 then the last two gone since my body finally reached the stage where it couldnt move any longer. Lol my arms were so tired, they cramped up whenever i pulled fly -.- Aiya and my breaststroke is now SHIT.
I think i have AP. OH NO cause i really think i do. At least im developing one. For those poor ignorant people, AP = Attitude Problem. Aiya, im very different from my old self now, dunno how. But i think im much more idontcare, youcangotohell, intolerant, bitchy, unreasonable, REBELLIOUS. OH that's like everything bad hor. Shit. But then im really damn asshole now i think, if a taxi horns at me for no good reason, i would probably show my middle finger and shout fuck. Gosh the old me would have just walked away saying sorry =/ And the new me is very rebellious, i find where last time i was SUPER respectful of authority adn adults, it's almost embarrassing to think of it. Now i am quite uh rebellious. Hmm can you all tell? I very openly showed my displeasure and temper thrice today and twice jaan responded. Hmm and EVEN WORSE, when he told me not to give him that kind of look, i gave him another look. I wonder what look he saw? I meant it to be a hmm... cold and disdainful look? SHIT AP. People keep on telling me how they are shocked at how much i have changed, in the space of half a year, since i left 2J. Lol if any of the old taonanites see me now they would weep for the old and very nice me. Not funny at all.
I hate the new me. I hate what ive become. And i find i do not care so much about work and tests now. Believe me when i say these. I DONT REALLY CARE ABOUT WORK. I AM NOW DAMN VULGAR. I FIND MY OLD INHIBITIONS GONE. I AM VERY REBELLIOUS. I AM BITCHY (i think). I have changed so much now and more and more like the badboys/poser gangster types i swore id never become. I hate it.
But then. I was thinking about going to the school psychologist! Hahaha yes we have one, and he's free right? I was thinking of asking my mother to bring me to a psychologist when i suddenly thought of our school psychologist. But then later people see how. His office is just opposite general office right. Eep. But the idea seems crazy. But i find that talks help you know, even those in groups. (and no i havent been to a psychologist/psychiatrist before)
Aiya i think i will just sit back and think. I do this very often i find =/ I like to just ponder over matters in my life and especially about myself. Hmm it's like i just think and think and finally just puzzle myself out and why i did those, feel that blah. But i was thinking about it in the showers today and i realised that this time i dont know where to start, and it's such a complicated mess
What kind of person have i become? I hate what ive become and i really want the old me back but i think it's my thinking that has changed and it will be kinda difficult to change especially with the environment (looks at 3L -.-) When we talked about people with AP i always felt pity? and dislike. I hate assholes. I think ive become an asshole.
I think i have AP. OH NO cause i really think i do. At least im developing one. For those poor ignorant people, AP = Attitude Problem. Aiya, im very different from my old self now, dunno how. But i think im much more idontcare, youcangotohell, intolerant, bitchy, unreasonable, REBELLIOUS. OH that's like everything bad hor. Shit. But then im really damn asshole now i think, if a taxi horns at me for no good reason, i would probably show my middle finger and shout fuck. Gosh the old me would have just walked away saying sorry =/ And the new me is very rebellious, i find where last time i was SUPER respectful of authority adn adults, it's almost embarrassing to think of it. Now i am quite uh rebellious. Hmm can you all tell? I very openly showed my displeasure and temper thrice today and twice jaan responded. Hmm and EVEN WORSE, when he told me not to give him that kind of look, i gave him another look. I wonder what look he saw? I meant it to be a hmm... cold and disdainful look? SHIT AP. People keep on telling me how they are shocked at how much i have changed, in the space of half a year, since i left 2J. Lol if any of the old taonanites see me now they would weep for the old and very nice me. Not funny at all.
I hate the new me. I hate what ive become. And i find i do not care so much about work and tests now. Believe me when i say these. I DONT REALLY CARE ABOUT WORK. I AM NOW DAMN VULGAR. I FIND MY OLD INHIBITIONS GONE. I AM VERY REBELLIOUS. I AM BITCHY (i think). I have changed so much now and more and more like the badboys/poser gangster types i swore id never become. I hate it.
But then. I was thinking about going to the school psychologist! Hahaha yes we have one, and he's free right? I was thinking of asking my mother to bring me to a psychologist when i suddenly thought of our school psychologist. But then later people see how. His office is just opposite general office right. Eep. But the idea seems crazy. But i find that talks help you know, even those in groups. (and no i havent been to a psychologist/psychiatrist before)
Aiya i think i will just sit back and think. I do this very often i find =/ I like to just ponder over matters in my life and especially about myself. Hmm it's like i just think and think and finally just puzzle myself out and why i did those, feel that blah. But i was thinking about it in the showers today and i realised that this time i dont know where to start, and it's such a complicated mess
What kind of person have i become? I hate what ive become and i really want the old me back but i think it's my thinking that has changed and it will be kinda difficult to change especially with the environment (looks at 3L -.-) When we talked about people with AP i always felt pity? and dislike. I hate assholes. I think ive become an asshole.
posted by yao. # 7:54 PM 
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