COS' WE ARE WINNERS FOREVER
Friday, April 28, 2006
if you wanna be my lover
HAHAHA ms and kenneth, i never thought i'd say this. BUT YOU ARE MY IDOLS XD For the moment at least until you come mess me up again. I think the story is quite exaggerated but still. BRAVE BUT OH SO BRAINLESS SHIT. I shall be your fan on this. HAHAHA ROCK ON!
Thursday, April 27, 2006
high on drugs
I feel like im high on drugs. I have resolved not to be moody or depressed at least on my blog anymore. Haha too many people complain cos they want to read my happy posts XD Yeah but a final one! i feel like my life is being ruined and wasted but somehow i dont care cos i feel im untouchable. I know that one day i will feel the sting when i come back down again but i dont think i care now. We shouldnt be too stressed out about our commitments and homework and stuff. Cause it all just turns out to be useless paper at the end, and robot knowledge. I want true knowledge, of what makes me happy, of people, of life, and of myself. I want the software that makes us the right kind of person, not the monotone office workers without any life outside the office. We must have fun cause life isnt meant to be just all about studying and tests and stress. One life, Live it. Live the moment, live life on the edge! That's the only way we can truly have a life and be happy.
NO STRESS! Live it like you like it.
NO STRESS! Live it like you like it.
Tuesday, April 25, 2006
calm before the storm
my blog has a problem. haha people there's another post below this, which was like days ago =/ but somehow my blog doesnt show it. AHHH that is, read it if this one shows -.-
And for some reason im feeling quite relaxed now. Haha that's maybe cos sunday had SO much work and ive done it all and i did my SS test today so unlike more than half the class i wont have to worry about it anymore. This week only have physics worksheet and ARGH physics test left. On waves which i NEVER listened to in class at all. Hmm and CTs next week. With gala and mayday! GAHH a bit dumb =/ Haha but not going midget meet. nowadays damn siaaan.
And im quitting math tuition cos all the other schools syllabus damn different from ri, half the time i cant follow anything and end up stoning. But it's such a pity cos now we changed place and this place is SOOO big and carpeted and all =(
Tomorrow learning journey day! YAY but then sec 3s going? erm some lousy place i think. I hope it's like a musuem with aircon and carpets and all. Better than going somewhere with mosquitos and hot sun and sweat. =) im a 100% city person.
And for some reason im feeling quite relaxed now. Haha that's maybe cos sunday had SO much work and ive done it all and i did my SS test today so unlike more than half the class i wont have to worry about it anymore. This week only have physics worksheet and ARGH physics test left. On waves which i NEVER listened to in class at all. Hmm and CTs next week. With gala and mayday! GAHH a bit dumb =/ Haha but not going midget meet. nowadays damn siaaan.
And im quitting math tuition cos all the other schools syllabus damn different from ri, half the time i cant follow anything and end up stoning. But it's such a pity cos now we changed place and this place is SOOO big and carpeted and all =(
Tomorrow learning journey day! YAY but then sec 3s going? erm some lousy place i think. I hope it's like a musuem with aircon and carpets and all. Better than going somewhere with mosquitos and hot sun and sweat. =) im a 100% city person.
Monday, April 24, 2006
kiss kiss
Feeling quite tired now, but at the same time really invigorated. Haha went to sleep at 12.30 last night. Set my alarm to wake me up at 3.30 to continue doing my work but i slept right through it -.- TOO TIRED HAHA. Then come morning when my mother woke me up to go to school i was SHITSHIT rush out immediately take out my work try to rush. Lol of course cannot so i went to school without having done RE or physics worksheets, or bio quiz. HMM luckily i had decided to finish my history john scopes essay at night though i was so tired. AND YAY everything went prefectly in school. True to form, i managed to complete my bio quiz during the three periods before recess even while listening in class. Haha english was a BIG time waster -.- Just going through compre and every question always got people argue lol. And physics quiz just joined in the mass copying session before school xP ALWAYS got at least half the class never do one haha.
Then RE ms kuang didnt ask for our portfolio and diaries -.-" HAHAHAHA THANKFULLY i didnt wake up at three i would be a zombie like the others. Haha there was SO much homework and projects due today everyone in class were asking each other what time they slept. Like "i slept at 4am doing re with jiahong". Lol and when i went offline at 12.30 there was still like more than half my class online. HAHAHA and i slept so much earlier xP Thank god for not waking me up =)
But then now got to study for ss test tmr =( Look at the notes. APPALLING. Aha at least ive read like 3 pages? of one of them. Altogether i think got over 50 pages worth of notes. AHHH. more.
All im listening to these few days are rock and hip hop =/ Totally different from my tastes and what i used to. But then i think it suits my mood.
And i think im becoming increasingly unstable.Hope i do nothing that i will regret. Haha and im really changing, people think im depressed? Hmm but yeah i need a shrink.
Then RE ms kuang didnt ask for our portfolio and diaries -.-" HAHAHAHA THANKFULLY i didnt wake up at three i would be a zombie like the others. Haha there was SO much homework and projects due today everyone in class were asking each other what time they slept. Like "i slept at 4am doing re with jiahong". Lol and when i went offline at 12.30 there was still like more than half my class online. HAHAHA and i slept so much earlier xP Thank god for not waking me up =)
But then now got to study for ss test tmr =( Look at the notes. APPALLING. Aha at least ive read like 3 pages? of one of them. Altogether i think got over 50 pages worth of notes. AHHH. more.
All im listening to these few days are rock and hip hop =/ Totally different from my tastes and what i used to. But then i think it suits my mood.
And i think im becoming increasingly unstable.Hope i do nothing that i will regret. Haha and im really changing, people think im depressed? Hmm but yeah i need a shrink.
Sunday, April 23, 2006
tell them we're dying
Saturday, April 22, 2006
cowboy god from head to toe
Went training this morning. FINALLY HOR XP But i cant swim liao. My fly is zzzz. Swim the first 50 then die =( Aiyo but at least like this i dont tire myself out like shit, cannot swim too fast to be too tired because my body is too fat and lazy to keep up hmm. But quite fun i think, and i managed to go under 6 minutes for 2 of them! Then the other two 6.04 and 6.06 then the last two gone since my body finally reached the stage where it couldnt move any longer. Lol my arms were so tired, they cramped up whenever i pulled fly -.- Aiya and my breaststroke is now SHIT.
I think i have AP. OH NO cause i really think i do. At least im developing one. For those poor ignorant people, AP = Attitude Problem. Aiya, im very different from my old self now, dunno how. But i think im much more idontcare, youcangotohell, intolerant, bitchy, unreasonable, REBELLIOUS. OH that's like everything bad hor. Shit. But then im really damn asshole now i think, if a taxi horns at me for no good reason, i would probably show my middle finger and shout fuck. Gosh the old me would have just walked away saying sorry =/ And the new me is very rebellious, i find where last time i was SUPER respectful of authority adn adults, it's almost embarrassing to think of it. Now i am quite uh rebellious. Hmm can you all tell? I very openly showed my displeasure and temper thrice today and twice jaan responded. Hmm and EVEN WORSE, when he told me not to give him that kind of look, i gave him another look. I wonder what look he saw? I meant it to be a hmm... cold and disdainful look? SHIT AP. People keep on telling me how they are shocked at how much i have changed, in the space of half a year, since i left 2J. Lol if any of the old taonanites see me now they would weep for the old and very nice me. Not funny at all.
I hate the new me. I hate what ive become. And i find i do not care so much about work and tests now. Believe me when i say these. I DONT REALLY CARE ABOUT WORK. I AM NOW DAMN VULGAR. I FIND MY OLD INHIBITIONS GONE. I AM VERY REBELLIOUS. I AM BITCHY (i think). I have changed so much now and more and more like the badboys/poser gangster types i swore id never become. I hate it.
But then. I was thinking about going to the school psychologist! Hahaha yes we have one, and he's free right? I was thinking of asking my mother to bring me to a psychologist when i suddenly thought of our school psychologist. But then later people see how. His office is just opposite general office right. Eep. But the idea seems crazy. But i find that talks help you know, even those in groups. (and no i havent been to a psychologist/psychiatrist before)
Aiya i think i will just sit back and think. I do this very often i find =/ I like to just ponder over matters in my life and especially about myself. Hmm it's like i just think and think and finally just puzzle myself out and why i did those, feel that blah. But i was thinking about it in the showers today and i realised that this time i dont know where to start, and it's such a complicated mess
What kind of person have i become? I hate what ive become and i really want the old me back but i think it's my thinking that has changed and it will be kinda difficult to change especially with the environment (looks at 3L -.-) When we talked about people with AP i always felt pity? and dislike. I hate assholes. I think ive become an asshole.
I think i have AP. OH NO cause i really think i do. At least im developing one. For those poor ignorant people, AP = Attitude Problem. Aiya, im very different from my old self now, dunno how. But i think im much more idontcare, youcangotohell, intolerant, bitchy, unreasonable, REBELLIOUS. OH that's like everything bad hor. Shit. But then im really damn asshole now i think, if a taxi horns at me for no good reason, i would probably show my middle finger and shout fuck. Gosh the old me would have just walked away saying sorry =/ And the new me is very rebellious, i find where last time i was SUPER respectful of authority adn adults, it's almost embarrassing to think of it. Now i am quite uh rebellious. Hmm can you all tell? I very openly showed my displeasure and temper thrice today and twice jaan responded. Hmm and EVEN WORSE, when he told me not to give him that kind of look, i gave him another look. I wonder what look he saw? I meant it to be a hmm... cold and disdainful look? SHIT AP. People keep on telling me how they are shocked at how much i have changed, in the space of half a year, since i left 2J. Lol if any of the old taonanites see me now they would weep for the old and very nice me. Not funny at all.
I hate the new me. I hate what ive become. And i find i do not care so much about work and tests now. Believe me when i say these. I DONT REALLY CARE ABOUT WORK. I AM NOW DAMN VULGAR. I FIND MY OLD INHIBITIONS GONE. I AM VERY REBELLIOUS. I AM BITCHY (i think). I have changed so much now and more and more like the badboys/poser gangster types i swore id never become. I hate it.
But then. I was thinking about going to the school psychologist! Hahaha yes we have one, and he's free right? I was thinking of asking my mother to bring me to a psychologist when i suddenly thought of our school psychologist. But then later people see how. His office is just opposite general office right. Eep. But the idea seems crazy. But i find that talks help you know, even those in groups. (and no i havent been to a psychologist/psychiatrist before)
Aiya i think i will just sit back and think. I do this very often i find =/ I like to just ponder over matters in my life and especially about myself. Hmm it's like i just think and think and finally just puzzle myself out and why i did those, feel that blah. But i was thinking about it in the showers today and i realised that this time i dont know where to start, and it's such a complicated mess
What kind of person have i become? I hate what ive become and i really want the old me back but i think it's my thinking that has changed and it will be kinda difficult to change especially with the environment (looks at 3L -.-) When we talked about people with AP i always felt pity? and dislike. I hate assholes. I think ive become an asshole.
Friday, April 21, 2006
dance dance
Im feeling so tired and completely wasted now. Ah dunno why but ive been feeling so sick this few days without any visible symptoms like fever, flu, sore throat or whatever. =/ Dunno whats wrong with me, but i hope it's nothing bad.
And today again couldn't go training =/ Interhouse polo! SHIT. WE GOT 3RD. YAY BAYLEY! Whee we almost got into finals lar. Like we drew with stupid morrison for 2nd, and so had to play a rematch which we lost 1-0 =( SO WASTED. But then they had like SO MANY swimmers and polo players, we had only 2 swimmers and 3 polo players. And so the non-swimmers just kept camping at our goal lol cos they cant fight for the ball or really move around much or fast. Haha. Annoying shit the morrison and moor people damn rough. I got bullied =( Haha and you would think some of the swimmers were crazy. Charles and i were like marking and pushing each other for the whole match and he's quite rough lol. i got elbowed and punched so many times lar. Once our probably future team captain just elbowed my jaw and it felt sore for a LOOONG time.
But quite fun lar. Since we had such a lack of swimmers i played every match except one half. Lol wanted to sit out another one and seetow made me stay cause we needed to win buckley. HAHAHA matthew xP But our team damn nice =) especially seetow yeah lol i think we're the nicest house when we lost to morrison in the end we still cheer for them. But when we tied with them before that, we cheer them they never cheer us. Lots of anger haha. But morrison DAMN scary. A lot of shouting, like if score then some guy damn fierce shouting all over. Haha i scared. And whole team all very fast lar. And i dont like the sec 4 polo players, when got no ball near they just come grab my arm dont let me move and push me down =( BUT do we get a medal for coming in third? x) jon lim damn funny, everytime he rush me and push me down he say sorry.
Lol and rachel yeo's group and samm your group all not going to do anything is it. GOOD so now we only have the skit left. Very nice hor people. Aiya later skit burst also. Then we can listen to the emcee the whole day and his magic tricks.
AND OH NO. I just saw the magazine and my super super ugly short hair at that time. ARGH. I think i spoil the picture =(
And today again couldn't go training =/ Interhouse polo! SHIT. WE GOT 3RD. YAY BAYLEY! Whee we almost got into finals lar. Like we drew with stupid morrison for 2nd, and so had to play a rematch which we lost 1-0 =( SO WASTED. But then they had like SO MANY swimmers and polo players, we had only 2 swimmers and 3 polo players. And so the non-swimmers just kept camping at our goal lol cos they cant fight for the ball or really move around much or fast. Haha. Annoying shit the morrison and moor people damn rough. I got bullied =( Haha and you would think some of the swimmers were crazy. Charles and i were like marking and pushing each other for the whole match and he's quite rough lol. i got elbowed and punched so many times lar. Once our probably future team captain just elbowed my jaw and it felt sore for a LOOONG time.
But quite fun lar. Since we had such a lack of swimmers i played every match except one half. Lol wanted to sit out another one and seetow made me stay cause we needed to win buckley. HAHAHA matthew xP But our team damn nice =) especially seetow yeah lol i think we're the nicest house when we lost to morrison in the end we still cheer for them. But when we tied with them before that, we cheer them they never cheer us. Lots of anger haha. But morrison DAMN scary. A lot of shouting, like if score then some guy damn fierce shouting all over. Haha i scared. And whole team all very fast lar. And i dont like the sec 4 polo players, when got no ball near they just come grab my arm dont let me move and push me down =( BUT do we get a medal for coming in third? x) jon lim damn funny, everytime he rush me and push me down he say sorry.
Lol and rachel yeo's group and samm your group all not going to do anything is it. GOOD so now we only have the skit left. Very nice hor people. Aiya later skit burst also. Then we can listen to the emcee the whole day and his magic tricks.
AND OH NO. I just saw the magazine and my super super ugly short hair at that time. ARGH. I think i spoil the picture =(
Thursday, April 20, 2006
make me feel
Got my digital chinese dictionary! Yay looks cool. And OWWW today we were practicing polo after school cos seetow wanted us to and i smashed my left ring finger on the ball. Or actually the ball smashed it. So now it's swollen and hurting alot it's very difficult and painful to type. Argh tomorrow bayley polo better not get last xP And i better not be too embarrassing. Haha i already know im not strong enough to shoot, better not be a free ball. Lol we like only have 2 swimmers and 2 polo players in sec 3 and 4 =/ While the other houses probably have like too many to put inside the team. But then, let's fight VERY hard, maybe then we might get fourth. JUST MAYBE. Lol. Aiya bayley always got no swimmers one grr.
But then i dont really care hor. Today after the practice was the swim carn heats. Lol IM totally no swimmers swimming. I should have swum get a stupid gold finally but i decided not to -.- Dunno why lar but haha all the polo players swam. QUITE funny their fly, but shall not say. Haha i would have liked to swim =( Aiya but feeling so tired and out of form, dont feel like swimming already. And i think only one swimmer went for the heats after the im. Sad. But shit would really have liked to swim. Silly me and my weird impulses/ mood swings =)
Pray for my poor finger! And my loads of homework to disappear supersuper quickly and maybe then you wouldnt find a pmsy me being seriously cold and intolerant anymore =) And yes pray for bayley to not get last. Then i can play a few more games x)
But then i dont really care hor. Today after the practice was the swim carn heats. Lol IM totally no swimmers swimming. I should have swum get a stupid gold finally but i decided not to -.- Dunno why lar but haha all the polo players swam. QUITE funny their fly, but shall not say. Haha i would have liked to swim =( Aiya but feeling so tired and out of form, dont feel like swimming already. And i think only one swimmer went for the heats after the im. Sad. But shit would really have liked to swim. Silly me and my weird impulses/ mood swings =)
Pray for my poor finger! And my loads of homework to disappear supersuper quickly and maybe then you wouldnt find a pmsy me being seriously cold and intolerant anymore =) And yes pray for bayley to not get last. Then i can play a few more games x)
Wednesday, April 19, 2006
tell everybody im on my way
Today there was 2.4 run x/ Haha did veryvery slow time, so sad =( But then haha havent been training or training well lol since the start of asean cup. But then made me so tired for the swim carn heats later. SO i just slacked it. Lol aiya anyway no proper warm up warm down blah all that not really any motivation to swim. And yes i think i did a 1.25+ for 100 breast xP Hahahaha but dont care la. And for medley relay bayley got 4th! Lol we lost to morrison and moor by like 50m. Tze kang never come so morrison had to fightfightfight. BUT! At least we lost to buckley by only like 20m? Though wenjian didnt swim i think, lol only one noob swimmer me in bayley =( And got up mr kelvin yap (our house head) looked at me like quite weirdly and said good swim -.-" lol i think he thinks im super slow or something cos i was doing free and so slacked. ANYWAY jianying said something that our dearest best performer mr ng tze kang apparently said which made me quite happy and surprised XD But lol i never believed it though a lot of parents said so too. HMM.
Feeling sick now. Ah just wish i could get a fever tomorrow. REALLY REALLY cos i so need a break.
Feeling sick now. Ah just wish i could get a fever tomorrow. REALLY REALLY cos i so need a break.
Monday, April 17, 2006
when will my reflection show who i am inside
The dances were VERY FUNNY. Haha yes and our little girls were being very brave for their ages but i didnt really find kenneth and ms funny -.- till i saw tammie and then i started laughing horribly too. xP dont worry girls i laughed worse for the toast. I LOVED IT. hahahha. AND MACHO MACHO MACHO MAN HAHAHAHA. But i wasnt quite happy with the dinner overall cause well it was my first time not sitting at a full table with all the others yeah and i dont really like it but i dont really mind cause i know it will be bad to sit with ms and anyway it will be just as boring, those being the people i dont really talk to =/ But still i didnt feel happy. Yo elite girls i know you all have too many people too for 1 table so gala want to sit with half a table of boys? haha i have a feeling my brother might not sit with me anymore too =( too bad everybody loves ms. fuck him
Swimmers are really poser and badboys hor haha. Tammie we must collect my debt! But ahahaha you're damn responsible and nice YAY SUMO!
on a online personality quiz i came across this question. "do unto others... what you can't do for yourself." Then i really felt like crying. After all these stress and disappointments and conflicts. All the things i cannot change, i am helpless about to leave me in such a pathetic state. I can help others with some of them, and it makes me feel so bad cos im sorry i cant do these things for myself, but i can only do them to others and make their lives better and happier. Im so selfish i feel horrible but i want to change how screwed up and sad my life has become as well. Im tired of waiting and tired of being sad, tired of not being able to make my life happier.
why has it got this way? up and down over the waves now we are at the bottom. i dont know if i can ever make it better, perhaps i just have to wait for someone to do for me what they cant do for themselves.
But please can't you see im trying. At least for this. in short, im tired tired tired of being a failure at social life. tired of trying and failing too.
You must be honoured you're making me feel so confused and unhappy. it's a joke the way i can be so at the losing end of this deal. But hell i cant do anything just stop making me smile so much so i can hate you properly. amazing how a single person can make your whole life go wrong.
sorry if i didnt seem to happy during asean cup, but then it's easy to sympathise with others, but hard to share in their joy. sorry im so selfish but it's difficult not to feel sad especially when everything's going wrong for you and right for them.
Let's get down to business
To defeat the Huns
Did they send me daughters
When I asked for sons?
You're the saddest bunch
I ever met
But you can bet
Before we're through
Mister, I'll make a man
out of you
Tranquil as a forest
But on fire within
Once you find your center
you are sure to win
You're a spineless, pale
pathetic lot
And you haven't got a clue
Somehow I'll make a man
out of you
(Be a man)
We must be swift as
the coursing river
(Be a man)
With all the force
of a great typhoon
(Be a man)
With all the strength
of a raging fire
Mysterious as the
dark side of the moon
could I make a manout of you?
(Be a man)
We must be swift as
the coursing river
(Be a man)
With all the force
of a great typhoon
(Be a man)
With all the strength
of a raging fire
Mysterious as the
dark side of the moon
(Be a man)
We must be swift as
the Coursing river
(Be a man)
With all the force
of a great typhoon
(Be a man)
With all the stength
of a raging fire
Mysterious as the
dark side of the moon
Swimmers are really poser and badboys hor haha. Tammie we must collect my debt! But ahahaha you're damn responsible and nice YAY SUMO!
on a online personality quiz i came across this question. "do unto others... what you can't do for yourself." Then i really felt like crying. After all these stress and disappointments and conflicts. All the things i cannot change, i am helpless about to leave me in such a pathetic state. I can help others with some of them, and it makes me feel so bad cos im sorry i cant do these things for myself, but i can only do them to others and make their lives better and happier. Im so selfish i feel horrible but i want to change how screwed up and sad my life has become as well. Im tired of waiting and tired of being sad, tired of not being able to make my life happier.
why has it got this way? up and down over the waves now we are at the bottom. i dont know if i can ever make it better, perhaps i just have to wait for someone to do for me what they cant do for themselves.
But please can't you see im trying. At least for this. in short, im tired tired tired of being a failure at social life. tired of trying and failing too.
You must be honoured you're making me feel so confused and unhappy. it's a joke the way i can be so at the losing end of this deal. But hell i cant do anything just stop making me smile so much so i can hate you properly. amazing how a single person can make your whole life go wrong.
sorry if i didnt seem to happy during asean cup, but then it's easy to sympathise with others, but hard to share in their joy. sorry im so selfish but it's difficult not to feel sad especially when everything's going wrong for you and right for them.
Let's get down to business
To defeat the Huns
Did they send me daughters
When I asked for sons?
You're the saddest bunch
I ever met
But you can bet
Before we're through
Mister, I'll make a man
out of you
Tranquil as a forest
But on fire within
Once you find your center
you are sure to win
You're a spineless, pale
pathetic lot
And you haven't got a clue
Somehow I'll make a man
out of you
(Be a man)
We must be swift as
the coursing river
(Be a man)
With all the force
of a great typhoon
(Be a man)
With all the strength
of a raging fire
Mysterious as the
dark side of the moon
could I make a manout of you?
(Be a man)
We must be swift as
the coursing river
(Be a man)
With all the force
of a great typhoon
(Be a man)
With all the strength
of a raging fire
Mysterious as the
dark side of the moon
(Be a man)
We must be swift as
the Coursing river
(Be a man)
With all the force
of a great typhoon
(Be a man)
With all the stength
of a raging fire
Mysterious as the
dark side of the moon
Sunday, April 16, 2006
a boring affair
Im sad, tired, exhausted, sleepy and really really down. I don't think i would have minded if i didn't go to this asean cup. It's just been much more disappointments, worry and conflicts. I want to sleep but then again i have my homework. A lot to do this week and i wasted this whole weekend. I really really hate feeling like i dont care about anything already, but i do.
So many things i could have done differently. So many things i couldn't have. I wonder if i had stayed in polo instead, would i be happier now? Probably not. But im tired of swimming and of swimmers already. There's nothing i can do to make it better now that im here. Probably i never could.
Let the rain fall down
And wake my dreams
Let it wash away
My sanity
'Cause I wanna feel the thunder
I wanna scream
Let the rain fall down
I'm coming clean,
I'm coming clean
So many things i could have done differently. So many things i couldn't have. I wonder if i had stayed in polo instead, would i be happier now? Probably not. But im tired of swimming and of swimmers already. There's nothing i can do to make it better now that im here. Probably i never could.
Let the rain fall down
And wake my dreams
Let it wash away
My sanity
'Cause I wanna feel the thunder
I wanna scream
Let the rain fall down
I'm coming clean,
I'm coming clean
Sunday, April 09, 2006
believe me i can fly
My breaststroke is! ARGH. =( even now training so sucky lor. aiya dont ever feel like swimming it nowadays. But i like fly now! haha it's fun to swim. But asean cup the ONE relay im swimming is the medley one -.- seriously that's not very smart. lol if the sri lankan guy had to swim one relay, shouldnt he swim the back one? cos he's like 1.02 right. but free is lol. Dunno if i want to swim, cos there's like almost 0 chance we'll get a medal =/ and i dont really want to show off my problematic breaststroke to everyone again. Later dq because lopsided hah. ah and asean cup doesnt seem to be going to be as fun as it was.
So much homework now. i dunno how to do math pt!
why must you make me smile so much
it's bad enough we don't get along
So much homework now. i dunno how to do math pt!
why must you make me smile so much
it's bad enough we don't get along
Saturday, April 08, 2006
say goodnight and go
Mansheng's leaving RI =(( Aiya why he want to leave. I feel quite sad =( He’s going ACS on monday, but tsk. I know im very confusing lar but i really dont want him to go haha he's too enjoyable to really dislike.
And i went ORA jogathon today! Yay ems, yan, cheryl, sarah lai, naomi, lang, t-yunn, samuel went too. And of course all my classmates, but it wasnt as fun as i thought it would be, but still fun =) And we went to become bone marrow volunteer donors! Yeah me and naomi and t-yunn and samuel. It wasnt even very painful, just a little poke on your finger. But there's a lot of blood =/ I spent like 18 bucks there xP ohhh and not even lunch yet.
Tired of swimming already. Aiya i hate it that my stroke is shitty but some people's are obviously worse and i can't beat them. I hate this subcomm and inefficient managers and coaches. I hate biased people. You know this asean cup like everybody is swimming. And all those little kiddies make up like the whole lot. Lol from the younger age group after shujian, the only person who won gold medals and record at the bloody JAG was yes my youngest brother (what can i say? my brothers rock). And these little kiddies who cant make 1.50 for freestyle hundred cruise think they're so good come swim with us (or rather their parents) -.- Hell i do that for breaststroke warm up, come swim with us in "competitive squad" (my FOOT) and get track suits and package for something we had to WORK for last time and now EVERYONE goes plus even for open midget they get. Please lar, we had to work for this last time, and dont come here and fake just cos your children cant get dont come and make me pissed. Hey if they did this last year, i WOULD have swum in asean cup. Idiots. LOSERS.
Want jaan just take lar. Last time come complain why the older swimmers get jaan all to themselves. "We pay for him then he specially teach them" ah. FIRST, your son not in elite plus not old enough yet. Hello go to primary 5 first can? Lol and all the other parents who did this too. Next, CHECK if your son is fast enough first. If cannot win medal then dont come here make noise. LASTLY, hey elite squads get the elite training right? I dont think small little kiddies WHO CANT EVEN SWIM AT THE SIDE OF THE LANE and JUST KEEP ON TALKING AND DONT UNDERSTAND ANYTHING and SLACK AROUND DURING LONG SETS IN THE MIDDLE OF THE POOL should get elite training. As it is, it isnt and elite squad already anyway.
Screw our club up. Fine. Lol both yiwen and i have MUCH MORE experience in swimming and package and everything than the subcomm. And the older swimmers parents too, but hey they dont want to listen to anything hor. There are 20 prizes for lucky draw this year. LOL. And please lar, it's not like you're erm very pro. Haha i know some of the things done and the rules too, very LAUGHABLE.
My life is screwed up too yes?
Im sorry, im not a nice person anymore.
And i went ORA jogathon today! Yay ems, yan, cheryl, sarah lai, naomi, lang, t-yunn, samuel went too. And of course all my classmates, but it wasnt as fun as i thought it would be, but still fun =) And we went to become bone marrow volunteer donors! Yeah me and naomi and t-yunn and samuel. It wasnt even very painful, just a little poke on your finger. But there's a lot of blood =/ I spent like 18 bucks there xP ohhh and not even lunch yet.
Tired of swimming already. Aiya i hate it that my stroke is shitty but some people's are obviously worse and i can't beat them. I hate this subcomm and inefficient managers and coaches. I hate biased people. You know this asean cup like everybody is swimming. And all those little kiddies make up like the whole lot. Lol from the younger age group after shujian, the only person who won gold medals and record at the bloody JAG was yes my youngest brother (what can i say? my brothers rock). And these little kiddies who cant make 1.50 for freestyle hundred cruise think they're so good come swim with us (or rather their parents) -.- Hell i do that for breaststroke warm up, come swim with us in "competitive squad" (my FOOT) and get track suits and package for something we had to WORK for last time and now EVERYONE goes plus even for open midget they get. Please lar, we had to work for this last time, and dont come here and fake just cos your children cant get dont come and make me pissed. Hey if they did this last year, i WOULD have swum in asean cup. Idiots. LOSERS.
Want jaan just take lar. Last time come complain why the older swimmers get jaan all to themselves. "We pay for him then he specially teach them" ah. FIRST, your son not in elite plus not old enough yet. Hello go to primary 5 first can? Lol and all the other parents who did this too. Next, CHECK if your son is fast enough first. If cannot win medal then dont come here make noise. LASTLY, hey elite squads get the elite training right? I dont think small little kiddies WHO CANT EVEN SWIM AT THE SIDE OF THE LANE and JUST KEEP ON TALKING AND DONT UNDERSTAND ANYTHING and SLACK AROUND DURING LONG SETS IN THE MIDDLE OF THE POOL should get elite training. As it is, it isnt and elite squad already anyway.
Screw our club up. Fine. Lol both yiwen and i have MUCH MORE experience in swimming and package and everything than the subcomm. And the older swimmers parents too, but hey they dont want to listen to anything hor. There are 20 prizes for lucky draw this year. LOL. And please lar, it's not like you're erm very pro. Haha i know some of the things done and the rules too, very LAUGHABLE.
My life is screwed up too yes?
Im sorry, im not a nice person anymore.
Thursday, April 06, 2006
must you make me smile so much, it's bad enough we don't get along
I hate stupid biased coaches =) reallyreally hate. i hate feeling ostracised too. really really hate.
And yay gotta do math and chem and physics now. I got dota now XD and yay i really love doing the baby programs we are doing.
And yay gotta do math and chem and physics now. I got dota now XD and yay i really love doing the baby programs we are doing.
read my mind
Wednesday, April 05, 2006
snatched my heart in the heat
Today my aim is to finish all work by 10.30 and go to sleep cos im currently super tired and i wanna go training tmr morning cos i didnt go today! But ive finished everything already, just need to mug for physics and philo >.< Argh and both totally have to mug from scratch cause i never bothered to listen for both. EEP.
And five items today! Quite fun i jumped 238cm =) though im quite sure i could jump further but ah well. Yay and friday we can slack cos next half of the class doing the five items, but next week 2.4 =( so wanted to do that this week.
But we have to MUG now! gosh i better score well tmr.
And five items today! Quite fun i jumped 238cm =) though im quite sure i could jump further but ah well. Yay and friday we can slack cos next half of the class doing the five items, but next week 2.4 =( so wanted to do that this week.
But we have to MUG now! gosh i better score well tmr.
Monday, April 03, 2006
on the edge of a new beginning
Now i may not be able to swim the bloody relays. If i do not get to swim $%*& to hell with my stupid events for the asean cup. I shall just crap them. I know this is irrational and unfair, but i dont care =) Fuck it. Relay was all i really wanted to swim. Oh yes, and i'll be so pissed i might just release that LONG looooong post i have on the management and coaches and all =) Cheers it's really screwed up.
SCREEEEEEEEEEAAAAAAMMM!!!!!!! Ah damnit it's a pity asean cup's in singapore this time. A pity in many things all over =(
Nearing the end of a cycle again! Not a good idea to screw me, i might just bitch you badly or cry (-.-") But it's a sad thing to cry in the dead of the night.
Tired of this life. Tired of hoping and being let down again and again. God i cant wait to start the new cycle SOON.
SCREEEEEEEEEEAAAAAAMMM!!!!!!! Ah damnit it's a pity asean cup's in singapore this time. A pity in many things all over =(
Nearing the end of a cycle again! Not a good idea to screw me, i might just bitch you badly or cry (-.-") But it's a sad thing to cry in the dead of the night.
Tired of this life. Tired of hoping and being let down again and again. God i cant wait to start the new cycle SOON.
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